Thursday, April 28, 2011

Silver lining

Immediately after posting my last post I wanted to take it down! I couldn’t believe I posted that out there for people to see! Moment of weakness…

But I have changed my mind, I decided to keep it there to remind me that the next time I am having a few rainy days, and I feel like I`m losing my grip, I can start again. I know it will probably take a long time to change, but I WANT to do it! I never want to feel like that again.

After reading the latest post from “Oh She Glows” I felt a little inspired, even though the issues were a little different I felt like some of the questions and answers still applied to me too. Angela is obviously a very strong woman…an inspiration…perhaps I’ll get my “Glow” back too.

I can do this…I CAN do this…Can saying that enough times make it true?

OK! The Shit List That Kicked My Ass: (doesn’t look like much when you write it down)
  1. Make pillow covers – Done and they look good..yea!
  2. Make Apron – Ok I have it cut out….it just needs to be sewed together…the hard part
  3. Meal Planning – Stumped, this is hard when you are planning for 2 and 1 is picky…perhaps I should add clean out the fridge to this list?
  4. Eat Breakfast Everyday – I can’t seem to get out of bed early enough
  5. Exercise 3 Days a Week – ha…I should of known better! perhaps I should work my way up to this one
  6. Take More Pictures – Took pictures didn’t take them off the Camera…mmm
  7. Do My Taxes – Did them today…and I’m getting money back! woot!
  8. Come up with Proposal for Photography Class – I have a couple of  ideas….nothing solid yet though…8 more days
Now just one thing at a time…what will the weekend hold?


I added this picture just because it makes me smile…I love  my Kitties

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

A Rainy Few Weeks…

I have fallen behind…again. The past two weeks have flown by and I feel like everything is piling up…This is where my dilly dallying kicks into high gear. Once I have skipped one thing it feels pointless to do the next. To even think about the things that I wanted to/should do makes me tired, gives me a headache, and makes me sad…I just want to curl up in a ball on the couch. I feel like I can’t do anything…this is my fourth attempt to write this post for gods sakes! This affects everything I do and I HATE it! I know it’s self sabotage but how do I stop it?! What is wrong with me!? I feel like I’m going crazy. :(

Friday, April 15, 2011

I'm in!!!!!! Phew!

Well it looks like I'm not going to have to beg for my life after all! I got an email yesterday saying that someone dropped out the course and I was first on the waiting list! Yea! The only bad news is that once my boss's found out the price of the course I think they changed their mind about paying for on the poor bus.

The course I signed up for is called Digital 5, the point of this course is to get you color adjusting your pictures and printing them so they turn out how you intended. I am excited about that...there is nothing worst that printing a picture and it looks nothing like it did on your computer. We have to  produce a series of photographs as if we were doing a gallery show and at the end an impartial person will judge how well our series reflect what we were trying to convey.

However what I am not excited about is that before the first class I have to have a written proposal of what I plan to do. Yikes! I am terrible with coming up with ideas...especially under pressure! First class is May 7th, that leaves 3 weeks to research...wish me luck...any suggestions would be greatly appreciated!

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Weekend Wanders

So this weekend was a busy one...

I took a step toward one of my photography goals...I signed up for my last Photography class need for my certificate! Good right?...not so good...the class was full already and now I'm on a wait list....*sigh*. I will just have to show up at the first class and see if anyone has dropped out and beg the teacher to let me in! On the bright side my boss has offered to pay for my course so I can use that money somewhere else in my budget!

Marks cousin Michael came to visit, he hasn't been to Toronto since he was a little kid so a lot of sightseeing was in order. We went to Niagara Falls on Saturday. It was a beautiful day ...warm & sunny, we walked around and of course did some gambling. I had budgeted myself $20 bucks for the Casino and I won $100 so I took it and ran...I ran right to the outlet mall and bought myself a new coat and sun glasses! I guess I probably should of saved it, that would of been the smart thing to do, but at least it was an outlet mall...more bang for my buck...right?..right..

Me at the falls...a bit over exposed...not bad for a cell phone picture
 Michael's visit wasn't just for fun he was here to pick up a European Boxer puppy from a breeder in Harley, ON. So our way back from Niagara on Saturday evening we picked him up. I forgot how much I LOVE puppies! He was very cute...until he threw up...I moved the blanket just in time to save my leg! I guess he didn't like his first car ride, but he slept the rest of the way.

look at that face!
On Sunday the boys went to a raptors game leaving me to puppy sit...we played in the yard & in the park but mostly we did a lot of napping...

At the Park

He was so tired he sat on my feet and went to sleep..this is what I saw when I looked down
Meal planning is still off to a rocky start and I only have one session left with my trainer. I asked her to help me come up with a workout schedule to keep me on track...guess we will see how that goes. I went for a run/walk today at boss has decided that we should do it at least 2 times a week...which is great...nothing like getting paid to exercise! 

I'm am off to do some more meal planning and blogging research...anyone know how to put a border on a picture? :)

Thursday, April 7, 2011

Thinking Ahead...

So I've created a budget and hopefully if all goes well I will be dept free in 6 months give or take. I don't know if anyone else has ever watched "Til' Dept do us Part" on Slice but Gail has a great set of Resources on her site and that is where I got my budget template.

I've also gathered all my papers for my taxes today and I will get them done either tomorrow or Monday. I opened an RRSP account with  my bank...I have nothing in it yet...but hey, it's a start!

Next up....Photography, Meal Planing, & Exercise Log

I currently have an Olympus 510 DSLR. When I got my camera I started photography classes at my local college and I became addicted! . Now I am just one course shy of having my photography certificate, but like everything else it seems like I will never finish it! If you want to see some of my pictures you can check out my Flickr.

Since I've been out of school for a little while I haven't been using my camera quite as much, I feel out of practice...use it or lose it! 

So guess I have two goals:
  1. Start using my camera (I plan on posting some to my Sunshine Sketches of a Little life page)
  2. and finish my certificate!
The meal planing & exercise log are going to take just a little more research.

Right now I have a fridge full of stuff that is semi-unhealthy that I need to clear out, however due to budget restraints I can't just throw it all out and start over. My biggest problem with food is portion control.....I LOVE food! so if anyone has any ideas feel free to share.

As for my exercise..I have two more training session left with my trainer then I am on my own for awhile. I am hoping that in these last two sessions I can have her help me figure out a schedule/plan that I can do on my own...the problem with that is that I am on my own...did I mention that I have no will power? On top of that I injured my Hamstrings yesterday so now I shuffle along like Sophia from the Golden Girls...hopefully it doesn't take a long time to heal!

Monday, April 4, 2011

Slowly but Surely..

I haven't given up! I’m slowly trying to organize myself to be a regular blogger. Trying to decide what I need to keep track of, goals I want to reach, areas of my life that I want to make more seems so overwhelming. Maybe I’m trying to do too much at once... I don’t know...I feeling like I’m setting myself up to fail. I’m thinking I should start smaller, pick one thing at a time. I guess I should start with the root of all my evil...a budget.